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The first person who initiates the destruction is guilty
I think it was only very bad at the beginning…
Now I have started meditating in other places as well. I have started meditating in parks, in apartment building stairwells, wherever there are no people around…
Actually, I feel weaker and worse with each passing day, not better, but when I meditate, I forget about it…
I think I chose the worst possible spot in this house. Meditation does not work here. Something seems to drain my strength, and I keep becoming weaker and weaker, without any energy…
I think the solution is to move to another house, but since I no longer have the money, that solution cannot be applied…
I do not know what more I can do besides going to the meditation hall, meditating with others, meditating in parks, in stairwells, or trying to meditate in this house, even though it drains all my strength…
I am constantly forced to go outside to meditate. I cannot maintain a good state in this house, and I always have to search for quiet places where I can meditate.
When I meditate in the park, people come around, which bothers me. When I meditate in apartment building stairwells, I feel afraid. I do not like constantly worrying that someone might come and disturb my peace…
