i feel soooo left behind……
there’s this line from a taylor swift song that says “how can a person know everything at 18 but nothing at 22?”
that hit me. HARD.
growing up…… i know exactly what i wanted to be and what i wanted to do with my life. i wanted to study tourism, get my degree, then move to new york at 21. all i wanted was to be at peace with my own life….. away from everyone.
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as i grow older, i’ve come to see how hard life can be sometimes. i had to come to terms with the fact that, some things just don’t turn out the way you want them to.
unfortunately, i am a person with deep emotions and no matter how happy and saturated my life feels, i’ll still have those moments where i would just sit and mourn the life i’ve always wanted and planned for myself.
nonetheless, i look forward to the day where i don’t have to feel small anymore. it’s exhausting to keep feeling bad for yourself and at the same time knowing that most of the time that you failed was also your fault.
i’m sorry younger me….. life is not always sunshines and rainbows but i hope that somehow…. i’m making you proud.
i believe we’ll get there someday:)
