TODAY[21/07/2026]
“Today was really interesting. I just read a comic book by Kaoru, published by Kadokawa Gempak Starz. There is an Egyptian prince named Prince Anubis. He has a dark past, which caused him not to trust anyone. In volume K47, there is a scene where he says:
‘I’ve been where you are. I know what it feels like to have nothing — it’s hard to describe. So I understand why you want to do this, but once your life ends, that’s it. All your efforts… your memories… and your dreams… will be gone forever. But by staying alive, at least you can hold onto those memories.’
It was deeply emotional. Nowadays, many people struggle with thoughts of suicide, and others often dismiss them as being ‘weak’ or whatever. But as human beings, we never truly know what is going on in someone else’s mind. We shouldn’t judge others based on what we see on the outside, because what we see is only the surface, not their inner struggles.
“That’s all. So, never belittle or mock those who take their own lives, because what they went through is not the same as what we go through. Maybe they lost someone they loved — and even if others experienced the same loss, it’s still entirely different because as human beings, we will never be exactly the same.”
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“I have also lost people I loved — my boyfriend, my grandfather, my great-grandparent, and a friend. At one point, I didn’t want to accept anyone into my life anymore because I simply didn’t want to lose anyone ever again. But I realise that I can’t stay like this forever.”
“At times, I dream of beautiful memories, and sometimes, I relive how I lost them. I have even looked down from high places and felt the urge to jump. But I realized that I have created so many beautiful memories with them, so I choose to keep living — to preserve those cherished memories.”
“I will continue to be myself, even though they see me as perfect. At school, I am the one who is constantly praised and admired. Everyone says, ‘Must be great to be you, you have everything.’ I just nod in agreement, but sometimes, I just want to scream that I am not perfect — that I, too, have a painful side.”
“I know that I still have time. What is gone will never return, and even now, I am still trying to let go of everything. I am glad that I’ve finally begun to start a new chapter, leaving the bad behind and embracing the good. This is who I am now.”
“That’s all for now, thank you.”
