My Cards Are All About Desire This Week

Three wands in a row…

All cards from The Golden Tarot by Kat Black. All photos by author.

I haven’t gotten any Coins and very few Wands since I restarted this practice two months ago. Then today, I drew three Wand cards in a row — two of them reversed. And according to Jessa Crispin, who wrote The Creative Tarot: A Modern Guide to an Inspired Life, Wands are all about desire.

That makes sense, because I’m in a big transition right now, and full of swirling desire that it will turn out all right. Awhile back my husband and I sold our house to our adult daughter. And with the money she paid, we bought a cabin in the woods — which was to be my refuge. And now, just this morning, four months later, we bought a one-bedroom co-op apartment in downtown San Francisco, which will be his.

I didn’t know this was how it would turn out when we started down this path — me with one place, him with another. I thought we would share an apartment in the city and have a getaway/vacation home for occasional use in the woods. But then I found myself spending a lot of time at the cabin — being nourished by it — and plans changed.

Moving is always a little scary, but this move is scarier than usual, because it also signifies a change in our relationship. We’ve been married 43 years, and co-habiting all that time. Now, we are separating a little. Not completely — but some…