Am I Making Excuses?

Maybe I wasn’t being lazy

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That is the question I’ve been asking myself over and over.

For the past few weeks, maybe even months, I’ve been living on excuses.

That’s how I feel.

I’ve not been writing as much as I want. I’ve not been reading and engaging with posts by my fellow writers as much as I want. I’ve not been studying for my certification as much as I want to.

I thought I was being lazy.

I was making excuses.

Then I started asking myself — am I making excuses?

That question led me to some clarity.

I wasn’t making excuses all the time, like I thought. I wasn’t being lazy all the time either.

I was battling headaches.

I’m waiting for my new glasses to arrive. That, I hope, will fix the problem. My difficulty with reading and writing seems to be connected to my eyesight — something I’ve been ignoring for a while.

I need glasses to see at a distance. But for a while now, I haven’t been able to read clearly with my glasses on. Taking them off, however, brings the letters back into focus.

So that was the game I was playing — glasses on, glasses off. And, of course, the eye strain may…