normal girl propaganda
why does the society hate the normal girl propaganda?
sometimes i look at society and yearn the version of myself that wasn’t polluted by society itself.
but sometimes, i also ask myself, what is ‘normal’? why do i yearn ‘normal’ so much? what is the kind of ‘normal’ i’d like to have in my life?
the definition of ‘normal’ for everyone is different. it’s influenced by the environment they grow up, the people they surround their selves with, their interests, how they live, and many more.
for example, i think of normal as the days where i just live, i do my routines, but not as in doing the same things everyday and just mimicking what i did yesterday. the environment i grow up in is probably as ‘normal’ as other people’s environment. religious, school, the ‘normal’ you might can think of. but sometimes, i think that’s just the thin layer hanging on the top of everything else i felt and experienced throughout my childhood up until my teen years, until today. i had my fair share of sadness, and maybe i still will drag it up until today, but i’ll try to tolerate it.
the ‘normal’ i’ve always yearned for is the peaceful routines and small surprises; this shows how much i hate overstimulation, which if you saw my room you’ll probably say otherwise. in the ‘normal’ world i dreamt of, i surround myself with people who has a peaceful life of their own — and the definition of ‘peace’ itself is different for everyone, and i respect that — they don’t always need me, don’t demand my presence 24/7, and have their own hobbies and don’t force me into the weird shit the world puts us on.
i can make another 1000 words essay on my ‘normal’, but let’s skip that for now. i’ll ask this instead, why do i yearn for the ‘normal’ world so much?
i clearly just want to be left alone. like, leave me alone bro oh my god.
the straight up answer on the kind of ‘normal’ i’d like to have in my life is the ‘normal’ where the world shuts the fuck up and everyone is in peace and especially me. i don’t need to know what everyone is up to, i don’t need to hear what the fuck everyone thinks, i don’t need to need anyone (but God) — and yes, for the religious people, yes i’ll still be going to church i won’t leave the church DAMN — i need everyone to shut up and stop being so fucked up.
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listening to “Normal Girl” by SZA got me thinking like this, and having trivial matters being taken too seriously (by my head, unconsciously) makes me yearn for that ‘normal’ where i’m surrounded by NORMAL people and NORMAL situations and NORMAL experiences and NORMAL shit.
there’s nothing philosophical about this but i think philosophy is so normal i love you philosophy, i am normal and i will always be normal! (in rage) (in NORMAL rage)
a.k.a. world stop being so fucking imnormal unnormal abnormal non-normal. shut the fuck up.
i’m probably overstimulated by how much the world works and hates the fact that i understand the dynamics of the world so much. sometimes, studying social-humanities makes you hate the society even more. humanity? maybe, society? fuck yes. i hate society.
i hate how much the society is depended on ‘relevant’ people and people will always bow to relevancy and climb the non-existent ladder of popularity. like, don’t y’all know how ass it is to be begging for popularity? to want to be relevant? i think everyone should start thinking about being normal rather than being overly too excited to be ‘popular’ or ‘relevant’. that shit gets you nowhere.
what’s worse is to survive in this fuck-ass life, i have to be somehow ‘relevant’ and follow the trends (yes, people do this, and yes it still happens until today no matter how hard everyone denies it) can y’all just be normal with everything? (???) like can y’all just think of y’all’s interest as something normal? like, in the middle?
to the people who thinks being popular and begging to climb that non-existent ladder and wanting to be relevant and doing everything to be relevant is normal, you’re sucking an invisible and non-being c*ck of a life full of suffering and dependency.
instead, suck the c*ck of peace.
i don’t know what i should write anymore. fuck the gov though. that’s normal yes the gov makes the propaganda that’s why hate the gov!
conclusion is, i think ‘normal’ is underrated.
plus note: normal is where you don’t judge each other. normal is caring for each other but not to the extent of judging them — yes, it happens a lot — we should practice that more.
